one month ago I was crying and saying that no one loved me. I saw you talking with a lot of girls and I was like; "yeah, he will never love me." And I was looking at you even before we talk, I was there, watching you and seeing if you were fine. Creepy, right? I know. I am creepy tho. {'laughing} No one can stop me yeah. If I love someone, nothing will stop me, and gosh, You're so perfect. I wish I could have meet you before, just to always stay on your side even without say how much I loved you. I don't care how much I waited for you, all I can say that wow, that time that was worth for. You're everything i could ask for. The perfect guy, the perfect person to stay with.

Do you remember this? It was right after I say yes when you asked me to date you. I couldn't stop look at your message. I was shaking and smiling like an idiot. I know that in the start I was being like really awkward- I know, gosh. I'm trying to be the perfect woman for you, the perfect future mother of our 12 babies? {'laughing}

This, yes, this one. The most perfect reply that I received from you. You're such a perfect human being, Jongin. Always being like a guardian to me, I don't want to ever lose you. Because people say if you stay for too long with someone, the other person , turn into a part of you. Everything that the other person feel you feel too, and you're away.. I feel so alone. I see that I get so lost- Even if its only one month, we talked for.. have been more than 2 months already, yeah? You turned into a part of me. The part that I can't stay without. That every night I'm craving and looking for your arms to sleep well. Without you, my life would be a mess. Honestly.

Maybe this one is the perfect reply too. No, not maybe, this one is too. Perfect. perfect. Any word can explain better what you are, perfect. The way you look at me, take care of me and touch me.. I never have been like this, I never.. felt like this before. You can make me go crazy and want more of you, stay more on your side.

I still remember so clearly how everything happened, and how my heart just skipped a beat when you said that liked me. I couldnt even reply you well, I just keep pointing at myself and asking to you; "me? you like me? Krystal? Soojung?" And you just laughing at my words.
-You idiot! I hit ask limit!
-I know, I'm so inteligent ~
-You're so idiot, right?
- I like you.
And from nowhere, you hit my head and heart. Honestly, that was a big slap on my face. From the days since I waited for you and keep quiet, trying to hide my feelings for you, I just noticed how much this time.. was worth for. I don't care how many times I cried just putting stupid things on my head that you didnt like me, what I really care is that you're here, with me.

And on these days that I'm with you, I keep growing as a woman. You changed me and made me see a mature side of this Krystal that I never never saw. I know that I still play and fight with you because of stupid things, but the kid inside of me will never die. /laugh softly/ Well, uhm. Yeah. I still can't believe that I can wake up on your side everyday, and when I can't.. I wake up with your perfect messages on my phone.